10/22: what a day

awful morning. i felt like crap so i decided to sleep in and not go to lab or lunch and wake up to go to class. but got woken up by johnny telling me to come to see the japanese girls dance at this Japan festival and i was like crap i forgot! so i had to go and i was bleary eyed and felt really out of body. i came right after the girls danced anyways and then i just got bread and a bottle of water for lunch. then went to class and learned about p-n semiconductors, which I kinda almost understand...i just kept thinking that i didn't do EE for a reason yet somehow i got into doing solar cell research. then i went back to my room to do laundry and other things including figure out my schedule for next semester! kinda crazy to think about it. then went to dinner with the lab people and after we had to discuss the Process Control hw which was making paper helicopters. Meanwhile, this dragged out til 9:30ish cuz they kept doing Rock paper scissor competitions, which normally involves the loser getting whacked in the ass with a big roll of poster paper. there was also some stands outside for the japanese thing so Jack bought me cotton candy, cuz they went to buy something else. It was really nice, but i was kinda taken aback because I 've been feeling like they just hang out with me from obligation, like i'm the little sister they have to bring around. today paul called me for lunch (but i didn't see it til later) and then also called me for dinner. and apparently it was because he lost at rock paper scissors. they laughed about it, but its not very funny for me if you think about it. but i think its just cuz paul is real shy. anyways they walked me home to the dorm and then i was researching how to do my research...which feels like a losing battle.